This memorial website was created in the memory of my precious darling Daughter, Stacey Elizabeth Nightingale who was born at Peterborough Maternity Hospital, United Kingdom on October 22, 1985 and was taken from us on December 20, 2006 at the age of 21. She leaves behind not only her Sister Vicki and myself but her Husband Clint and many Aunts, Uncles, and Cousins, also her half Sister and brother and neices and nephews, and many many friends, her closest being Cara.  She is in our thoughts every minute of every day and will remain in our hearts forever.   Stacey's big Sister, Vicki and I are just establishing Stacey's memorial site, we have so much to add and incorporate.  Please help us by making it as beautiful and special as Stacey herself.  Please also visit often, updates are regularly added and Vicki and I take so much comfort when we see a candle has been lit for our precious Angel.  Thank you












 








     




On the worst day of our lives, 20th December 2006, Heaven received a very special Angel  -  Our Stacey
The evening before she had been at her cousin's house having a pre-Christmas drink and helping to prepare festivities for her cousin's two baby children.  There was an unexpected visitor who decided to stay for a while and join the small party.  This "visitor" was an ex-boyfriend from Stacey's past when she was about 14 or 15.  He evidently made it obvious that he would like to renew their aquaintance, she spurned his offer and explained that she was recently newlywed.  
I need to mention also, at this point that, since Stacey's death, it has been proved beyond doubt that this cousin, Toni Goodman age 18,  is an evil, manipulative, pathological liar who has completely deserted her children now.  Thanks to Stacey and her Sister Vicki they are now safe in the custody of their Grandparents and are very much a part of our very loving family.
  Stacey gave her spare time, cash and plenty of love to Toni and her two children, and was there to help out this cousin as she just could not cope with her children and Stacey seriously suspected neglect. 
What is also painfully obvious, though, is that during that evening "someone" spiked her drink with amphetimines (speed).  When we got the call, we rushed to the hospital and actually got there before the ambulance.  Stacey had suffered a seizure and they needed to know what was wrong with her.  At this point so many lies were being told by the cousin involved, so many people were covering for each other that it was very cloudy and it took half the night before someone gave us the answer, this ex-boyfriend admitted doing it in a police statement (this later turned out to be a lie told by the cousin, and we have since established that the Cousin used "speed" regularly and the ex-boyfriend was her dealer!).  Now we thought that the hospital Doctors would get Stacey well again.  Tragically this was not to be, she suffered at least three more seizures over the next day and died at 9.30pm after her poor little heart had given out, it just could not cope and had been beating at dangerously high speed all day.  It has been suggested, but again I do not know for sure, that Stacey may well have had a bad reaction relating to the anti-depressants she had been taking following the recent deaths of her Dad, Grandad and Grandma.
  What is also important is that we have now found out that Toni had used this drug on Stacey on two previous occasions, presumably to keep her at her home because she was so emotionally dependant on my darling Stacey.  There is no doubt in my mind that Stacey was killed by her cousin and maybe the drug dealer, one of them knows what happened that night but they are not telling.
That's about all I can say at the moment to inform you about how my baby girl was so cruelly murdered.  All I do know for sure is that my precious little girl has been taken from her Sister, her husband and me before her time.  It was, without question, at the hand of another human being but it looks like we are going to end up as a statistic of people unhappy with our justice system.  At Stacey's inquest, held on 18th July 2007, the coroner gave a narative verdict saying that it could not be proved who had put the drug into her drink that night, but, at the same time, he does not believe that she was responsible for taking the drug herself of her own accord.  
I thought the inquest might bring some peace of mind, some sort of closure, but it has just left me with so many unanswered questions and the insufferable knowledge that my child's killer is walking free.

My Stacey had been through so much pain and loss, but even as heartbroken as she was she always had a comforting smile, hug and kiss for anyone that needed it.  She always reached out to help anyone who was in need, God bless her.

She was a ray of Sunshine in our lives, the funloving, sweet, caring life and soul of any gathering.  Quick witted, you just could not help but love her, a good description of my Stacey is that she is a loveable rogue.  She was totally honest with people, totally loyal and devoted to her family and friends and you would always find her involved in some way helping out the underdog.  Such a compassionate soul so kind, loving and tender and yet so strong and such a wicked sense of humour.

I am one very proud Mum
whose heart weeps constantly 
for my lost Daughter, Stacey,
and for the suffering of my surviving Daughter, Vicki








    












My Darling Daughter Stacey
You were born into our family on 22nd October 1985, a precious little 8lb 1oz bundle of sheer joy. We always called you our miracle baby because we had to fight against all the odds to have you. You were a beautiful blonde haired princess with the most gorgeous blue eyes - you got those from your Dad!

You blended, and completed, our family perfectly. Your little big Sister Vicki adored you from the day you were born and was so excited and proud to show you off when we got you home. Needless to say that your Dad and me were besotted with you. Your big big Sister Shelley and big big brother Lloyd were already grown up really by then but you still found a special place in their hearts.

Those years, as you and Vicki were growing up, are the happiest years of my life. Nobody could ever have predicted how close you and Vicki would become as you grew older. As children you both fought like cat and dog, but you became the closest Sisters I have ever known possible. You were always such a loveable rogue, so funloving and mischevious, yet you were always able to wind us round your little finger with your angelic smile and winning ways.

You were always the most affectionate person that I have ever known, as a little girl even the lollipop lady got cuddles every day. As you grew older you were never afraid to openly show your love to us all and to show that you enjoyed receiving it too. Being Mummy to you and Vicki, alongside your Dad, were the the most wonderful years.......watching you grow into a beautiful young woman....inside and out.

You were always so very caring, you would have made the most perfect nurse, you always genuinely cared about people, especially their feelings. You were so kind and giving, I know you would often put other people before yourself. One of your greatest attributes was your ability to make people feel that they had a protector, you would loyally and passionately defend anyone who needed help. You would so often put the needs of others before yourself, always so sensitive and amazingly thoughtful. I always loved your total honesty, if you had an opinion then you would voice it and defend it to the hilt (oh boy did you voice it!) and, of course, you were always first to champion the underdog, but, just as importantly, you were always prepared to apologise unreservedly if proved wrong and without bearing a grudge. Your capacity to forgive is enviable.

You brought so much joy and happiness into our lives and we had so many years as an idylically happy family. Since then, of course, so much tragedy and sadness entered our lives that we wondered how we could possibly cope with anymore grief. We have lost so many precious people in such a short time...Nikita, Dad, Grandad and Grandma. I still find it so unbelievable that you managed to cope with such devastation in your life whilst, at the same time, you were still able to be so supportive and protective of others. I know you were absolutely heartbroken when you lost your Dad, you had the most unique special bond with each other and you were most definitely a Daddy's little Girl, he used to call you his little StackyLizbiz and from that followed Stax. I know that you would never have come to terms with losing your Dad but, even through your own inconsolable grief, you still managed to think of others. I honestly don't know what I would have done without my girls, you really looked after me so well at a time when you so needed looking after yourselves. This is where we owe so much to our special family and friends for all their invaluable love and support when we needed it so desperately. I am so very grateful for our wonderful family who still continue to be a rock. I am especially proud of how all of you young ones have coped with far too much.

Of course, just before losing your Dad, you had met Clint and he was such a comfort and wonderfully supportive of you just as Lee was for Vicki. When we found out how ill Grandma was you and Clint decided to bring your wedding forward from September of this year to 6th August 2005, which would also have been the anniversary of Grandad's birthday. It was a wonderful, bittersweet day. I know you would have loved it if Daddy could have walked you down the aisle and I was honoured when you asked me to do it. We decided that I would escort you on my left arm so that your Dad still had his rightful place on your left. As I walked you down the aisle my heart was bursting with pride, you looked so stunningly beautiful - every inch a fairytale princess. It is one of the many precious memories that I will treasure.

Even through all the sorrow and grief we had endured as a family, you still managed to bring sunshine into our lives my darling. Your dazzling smile and sparkly, witty personality could transform unutterable sadness into glimmers of happiness and, above all else, you genuinely cared about people all around you.

I could write a very thick book and fill every page with precious memories of you my sweet baby girl. I remember, when you were a little girl, telling you that you're never too old for kisses and cuddles with Mummy, and that is something we always had plenty of. In fact, you were like it with pretty much everybody! Your kisses and cuddles were a true reflection of the genuine warmth in the love you gave.

Life without you in it is unthinkable, unbearable. My world has been ripped apart and can never be repaired. Everything about my life includes you in it, work, rest and play. There is still so much we should be experiencing and sharing together and I know that everytime I find myself anywhere that you should be, then I am so heartbroken that you have to miss it and that I cannot share it with you, physically. But, thankfully, you, Vicki and me are very deeply spiritual and we know you are around us and we know when you are with us. We are very aware of the timing of the new baby that Vicki is now carrying, we know that somehow you have had a hand in it my darling and you have sent your Sister her very own miracle baby who already has an extremely special Guardian Angel, Auntie Stacey. I am convinced that we will all be reuinited one day and, therefore for everyone, the best is yet to come.

I am everlastingly thankful that a little of me is caught up in your being and that you carry me into a future that we will all share one day. You have my love, the love that links us. The love that bonds us for eternity. You are all of us - and yet yourself forever

We will all miss you so much. I have to keep reminding myself that the majority of your life was so happy and that you acheived and experienced so much in your very short life. In the lesson of living life to the absolute fullest, and coping with it so well and maturely, you have graduated with the highest honours my darling.

My darling Angel, I will be thinking of you, and praying for you, everyday. I will miss you every minute until we are together again. Until then my baby stay safe in the loving arms of your Daddy, Grandma & Grandad

With all my undying love forever
God bless you my darling Stacey
from Mummy xxxxoooo 




























Stacey is in the very safest of hands.  Her Daddy, Grandma and Grandad were all waiting to welcome her and they continue to look after her now as they always did here.  Stay safe my precious loved ones, I am so looking forward to our family chain linking back together again....


    
My Pete                                         My Mum and Dad
Stacey's Daddy                 Stacey's Grandma and Grandad
angel date                                              angel dates
27th February 2004         1st August 2004 and 28th September 2005




My precious Daughter Stacey
angel date
20th December 2006


In less than 3 years our whole world has been ripped apart
Vicki and I are left behind, she is all that I have left of you













       
   The Broken Chain  
(author unknown)

We little knew that morning that
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you,
You did not go alone;
For part of us went with you,
The day God called you home.

You left us peaceful memories,
Your love is still our guide;
And though we cannot see you,
You are always at our side.

our family chain is broken,
And nothing seems the same;
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.





    
 





A Story of hope, peace and perspective.....

In the bottom of an old pond lived some grubs who could not understand why none of their group ever came back after crawling up the stems of the lilies to the top of the water.
They promised each other that the next one who was called to make the upward climb would return and tell the others what had happened to her.  Soon one of them felt an urgent impulse to seek the surface;  she rested herself on top of a lily pad and went through a glorious transformation which made her a dragonfly with beautiful wings.
In vain she tried to keep her promise.  Flying back and forth over the pond, she peered down at her friends below.  Then she realised that even if they could see her, they would not recognise such a radiant creature as one of their number.

The fact that we cannot see our loved ones, or communicate with them after the transformation which we call death, is no proof that they cease to exist
Author:  Walter Dudly Cavert in Beyond Sorrow
by Herb and Mary Montgomery























Through the days i stumble along
waiting to hear your voice.
Listening to snippets of our song,
Knowing this isnt by choice.
It seems so long since i held you tight,
Wrapping you in a warm embrace.
So many cold and lonely nights,
Not seeing your angelic face
Each morning arrives so brand new,
Another that i must go through,
Each one is a sentence, which were not due,
Each one spent without you.
I pray to god every single night,
That he will keep you safe from harm.
Until I see that wonderfully angelic sight,
And envelop you in my arms.

all my love forever and eternity

clint xxxx
your everloving husband















I'm still with you.......
Blessings from Heaven to those left behind

I'm still here here, my loved ones please don't mourn for me.
I'm still here, though you don't see.
I'm right by your side each night and day,
and within your heart I long to stay.
My body is gone, but I'm always near,
I'm everything you feel, see or hear.
My spirit is free, but I'll never depart
as long as you keep me alive in your heart.
I'll never wander out of sight
I'm the brightest star on a summer night.
I'll never be beyond your reach
I'm the warm moist sand when you're at the beach.
I'm the colourful leaves when autumn comes round
and the pure white snow that blankets the ground.
I'm the beautiful flowers, of which you're so fond,
the clear cool water in a quiet pond.
I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in the spring,
the first warm raindrop that April will bring.
I'm the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine
and you see that the face in the moon is mine.
When you start thinking there's no-one to love
you can talk to me through the Lord up above.
I'll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees
and you'll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze.
I'm the hot salty tears that flow when you weep
and the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep.
I'm the smile you see on a baby's face,
Just look for me my loved ones......I'm every place !!























I know you're gone from this earth
You left me way too soon
But I feel your love every time
I gaze up at the moon.
Sometimes I think I hear 
A whisper in the wind,
It sounds as though you've called my name
As your love to me you send.
Sometimes I do a silly thing
and your laughter fills my ears,
I know that you're right here with me
But I can't see you through my tears.
I feel your hand upon my shoulder
and I quickly turn to see,
Visible.........you are not
But I know you're here with me.
In the night you sometimes come
to visit in my dreams,
My arms go out to hold you tight
but you're just out of reach it seems.
For just a second you appear
standing close to me
Is it just my imagination
or is it really you I see?
Even though you're gone from me
and you watch me from above
I long to be with you everyday
and I still feel your love
Author Unknown














      

Stacey adores Winnie the Pooh
Vicki, big sis, adores Piglet
Best Friends Forever



If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together
there is something you must always remember.
You are braver than you believe, Stronger than you seem
and smarter than you think.
But the most important thing is,
even if we are apart ........
I'll always be with you
                                      (Christopher Robin to Winnie the Pooh)
                                                                    (A A Milne)

                     






















"Because You Loved Me"

Since we lost Stacey's and Vicki's Dad the three of us have had some very deep conversations.  One of those was what music we would like played at our funeral.  Stacey said that her song had to be "because you loved me" sung by Celine Dion.  This music is currently playing here on Stacey's site.  I had never really listened to the words too much but, as it played at her funeral, I was filled with such comfort and joy knowing that this is how my precious Daughter felt about her family and friends.
Now, I would like to print the words here and dedicate them to my beautiful Angel Daughter Stacey.

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love, I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

Dedicated to Stacey with all my love forever, 
Mummy xxxxoooo

















In Memory of You

I find an old photograph and see your smile.
As I feel your presence anew, I am filled with warmth
and my heart remembers love.
I read an old card
sent some time ago, during a time of turmoil and confusion.
The soothing words written then still caress my spirit 
and bring me peace.
I remember who you used to be, the laughter we shared,
and wonder what you've become.
Where are you now?  Where did you go?
When the body is left behind and the spirit is released to fly?
Perhaps you are the morning bird singing joyfully at sunrise,
or the butterfly that dances so carelessly on the breeze,
or the rainbow of colours that brightens a stormy sky,
or the fingers of afternoon mist delicately
 reaching over the mountains,
or the final few rays of the setting sun lighting up the skies
edging the clouds with a magical glow.
I miss your being
but I feel your presence,
in whatever form you choose to take,
however you now choose to be.
Your spirit has become, for me, a guardian angel on high
guiding, advising and watching over me.
I remember you
You are with me
and I am not afraid.
Author:  Kirsti A Dyer MD MS














Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy
                                   (Psalm 126:5)





There is nothing anyone can say,
There is nothing anyone can do
to heal our broken hearts or take away our pain
Can grief kill?
How long can we bear this agony?

Loving you always,
forsaking you never.
When it's time
we'll be together forever



Speak of an Angel and hear the flutter of her wings....
We are listening Stacey my darling...........

 Mummy and Vicki 
xxxxoooo










They say there is a reason,
They say that time will heal,
But neither time nor reason,
Will change the way I feel.
For no-one knows the heartache,
That lies behind our smiles,
No-one knows how many times
We have broken down and cried.
We want to tell you something
So there won't be any doubt,
You're so wonderful to think of
But so hard to live without




Very special thanks, and untold appreciation, to the following wonderful people who have helped create some of the beautiful graphics for Stacey:

Dianne~Jeanne's House of Angels
Denise~Mom of Angel Nathanial Parnell
Margaret~Daughter of Angel Nellie Buonpane
Ruth~Twin of Angel Jose Figueira
Marja~Daughter of Angel Mrika Gjelaj
Theresa~Daughter of Angel Pauline Rolocut
Dawn~Mom of Angel Michael Lutek
Judy~Wife of Angel Joe King
Sharleen~Mum of Angel Duane Mounger
Michelle~Daughter of Angel Brian Compton
Casey~Mum of Angel Kori Hubber
Melissa~Daughter of Angels Irwin & Renee Eiler
Candy~Mum of Angel Kelly Lynch

Heather Coleman~Heather's Animations
http://www.heathersanimations.com

Thank you from the bottom of our hearts
we are so very grateful